NaPoWriMo Day Ten

IN DISCUSSION WITH HELEN

was thinking about you losing your joy –
my experience has been that my joy is never lost.
tho’ sometimes moldering  under layers of grief, or anger, or exhaustion,
inevitably it pushes through to the surface
refusing to be denied
refusing my miserable attempts to ignore it,
much like Emil Catt insistently butting his head against my hand for a rub

it can be so annoying